Oh my. It’s October. Alvaro forgot the name and called it PorktoberFest 
Well, pork sausages are a must for October Fests and pigs are closer to us than oxes Is it the plural? Seems odd.
I continue my heroic struggle with carnivore-ish. It’s very ish today as it’s soup day! My little soup is very poor considering the amount of vegetables, it’s negligible at this point And it’s full with liver dumplings! Egg, ground smoked pork skin and much fried liver. Nice stuff in times with a dangerously low egg supply. As I normally just poach 6-8 eggs in it and the next day another few Soup is the frame for my poached eggs.
I made liver spread too and got nostalgic… It was the most common spread as a kid though we didn’t eat the cheap stuff in the shop often, we fed it to the cats. They loved it. We never made it ourselves. Somehow I wasn’t into liver as a kid. Pig liver is a bit hard anyway but I never ever fried it, I need to try it soon!
Guess what, Amy bought chicken liver too She felt she did something brave As if eating a perfectly good part of an animal would be so special… Well it surely is for people in countries where eating organs isn’t a very normal thing… Countries are different. I never ever saw patties in the stores (but I guess some kind exists in bigger ones… I never looked… but you guys talk about it as it’s something very common thing) but liver is absolutely everywhere, maybe some 3 steps wide mini village stores don’t have it normally but even they have it in tins. It’s only the liver 
This month… That won’t be anywhere as perfect as November but I need to train for it…
I will eat more liver and fish if I can, I don’t know why I have this aversion to tasteless fish I actually can make okay food with it so when I make it, I can enjoy it but I rarely can bring myself to do that. I strongly prefer tasty ingredients that are great as is.
I will keep various food items in my fridge so I won’t be hungry and lost, feeling I ate from everything already and want something new. It’s a special lack of proper meat situation as if I have some substantial stew or big roasted pork or whatever, I never have this problem. But I have so many things so with some planning, it will be fine.
I so would try that Some lucky carnivores eat bison. I would need to order from some super expensive webshop with a fridge truck thing
Well, we have deers, it’s something. Getting deer meat isn’t hard and it’s very delicious. And I rarely like lean meat. But it’s good. It’s the special case when I don’t fry/bake the hell out of a meat, it’s lovely when pink.
I wondered about it. Whatever, I didn’t eat beef since too many months either. I look to the general direction of the beef farm very expectantly in October. Beef is expensive but some would be very nice.
Should I come up with something special for this month? That I do each and every day despite everything?
No peanuts I am not obsessed anyway but I eat a single piece sometimes and on certain rare off days, more. Well, I can stop that.
But what can I do on already cute carni-ish days? I don’t give up my sugar free mustard, I barely use that anyway. I won’t buy tinned fish with sauce anyway. Giving up cream for a month is a bit much due to my coffee addiction. Coffee drinking is borderline impossible to quit and I focus on more important things. I already never eat sweetener on carni-ish days as it’s not in my definition (and their use is pretty much plummeted on off days too). And no one can take away my ice cream (that I never want on carni and I don’t have enough eggs to make some since long but it’s the principle what matters).
Hmmm… No coffee with cream outside of my proper eating window, it’s easy, my plan anyway. No, NOTHING outside of my proper eating window. Except black coffee and plain tea, I am trying to be realistic here. And water but that’s obvious. Maybe lemonade if I am at horribly low energy (my lemonade is water with a few drops of lemon juice but I have mint in my garden too. I use it once a year).
But my main goal for October is getting meat for November. Proper meat I like, in variety. Emu, ruminant, pork and chicken, that would please me. And liver, fish (hake and tuna), sausage and smoked pork ribs, chuck and hocks. Various mostly zerocarb cheeses (I never have problems in this area). And as many eggs as I want. Nothing can go wrong there.
It’s my carni-ish day #2 today and it’s easy to continue for a while. If I feel things get hard (and not because I want grapes), I immediately will raise my meat consumption. In 8 days I get something proper again, fish, liver and smoked pork will sustain me until then. I never did carni-ish for that very long and it’s grape season. Tricky. But that’s the beauty and fun of challenges
We will see if I will be this enthusiastic, like, 5 days into this… I would give up without sausages (I get some on Saturday, hopefully), I miss them 
It’s easy without processed meat if you have something proper but it’s vital in my life… Well I wouldn’t give the tasty dry sausages with lots of paprika for anything My egg sandwiches aren’t the same since I don’t have those.
So now I feel pretty heroic (well, that’s an exaggeration :D). About 60g pork for today and no proper meat for the next week (EDIT: I forgot my little pork stew in the fridge. yay! no problem then)… No sausages right now… Very little smoked pork chuck… Almost no eggs… I don’t even want to see cheese anymore… My quark is low-fat and has an odd texture (I just had to try, they said it’s creamy. it’s not. of course I mix it with fatty things so the low-fat part doesn’t bother me this one time. I always hated low-fat dairy with a passion though). I have fish I don’t actually want, it will come handy later.
It’s a miracle I can eat anything. Well a little of everything works for now. I even have some quite tasteless fatbombs! But I appreciate the energy.
Maybe every time I buy something, I just need to buy 2 times as much? My freezer has space now. Yeah, I will do that when I buy something I actually know it’s good so it’s worth it.
So unlucky year. The beef farm disappeared for many months, the little rabbits of the egg lady kept dying (we were supposed to get some in August, we planned to buy more and we can’t do it this year)… A not very far shop selling emu meat went out of business… But we still will get some and fresh one at that!
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I am after my dinner. And my second dinner as I was hungry, well, no wonder, too low cal and only adequate protein. It’s super hard when I don’t want to eat anything, I am just hungry. Annoying, really. I try to keep more things in the fridge, I can be super choosy sometimes.
Oh well, carni day #2 is done. I probably will drop the fatbomb idea, too many problems with it.
Oh and another idea for October. Extremely easy No-booze October I plan a carni November so no-booze November is a given too. I will drink in December.
Tomorrow I go back to OMAD. Both OMAD and TMAD has benefits and downsides but now that I am choosy (=I don’t desire any food in existence, not even when I am weak and hungry), it’s not a good idea to eat without any hunger as I did today. I didn’t think and I had my freshly made soup with liver dumplings… Not I desired that but well, warm soups are nice on gloomy days.
And I want experiments in October too. As in every other month! Especially regarding fat and protein, how much I can eat in one sitting… Maybe I never ever made my regular high-calorie day a carni day. It happens on an off day when it’s easier. I need to make plans…
I realized already that my fat/protein ratio is totally irrelevant as long as I keep both macro in the usual range (not like I have power to put them anywhere else), 80-180g. The type of fat matters a bit but I get satiated with calories, basically. It’s useful, I look at my numbers and I can make an educated guess if I will be fine before bed or raid the fridge (okay, eat an egg but sometimes it’s more).
But I want to try various styles and food items to see if something interesting happens…
I am curious about my weightlifting performance too, on a slightly longer term carni. It goes very well lately, it doesn’t even matter how I eat, my sleep and the weather has more impact through my mood… And I noticed eating more never hurts… But maybe I see something interesting later.
. Yup Shinita is right…i bought chicken livers…and I only ever had beef liver…as a kid…and wasn’t a fan… but…IRON!!! I need it…i just hope they don’t explode and it rains liver that I then have to clean.
So today… bbq burger pattys…and cheese… And ok… sorry sorry mushrooms and a teeny handful of lettuce… I’m getting there.
. Meanwhile I went for a very long walk today and saw flowers
. I went in there… it stank…and on the radio they were going on about heart attacks… haha… there was nobody in there… they probably do it on purpose so they don’t have to work ad hard.
. Happy October gang!
