One of them days when I feel like the old me

(Chelsea Barnett) #1

Anybody have days where even though you’ve lost weight and are usually happy about it and proud of yourself and all that you have done to get to that point but… you look in the mirror and see the old You?
I am having one of those days today. I hate the way I look. I feel gross. I don’t know what to do. I just want to go lay down and curl in a ball and cry. :frowning:
I can’t even do that because I have 4 kids that I have to take care of and my boy friend is at work.

Sorry to bring such gloom to the forum but I was wondering if I’m alone in this ?

(Chelsea Barnett) #2

All I want to do is eat. I just had a low carb salad and now I feel even more gross after eating. I am very very upset.

(Chelsea Barnett) #3

I suffer from depression…so maybe it is just creeping up on me. I haven’t really felt depressed in a while though. I am off of my meds and have been for a year. But Idk. I think I’m falling into a depression again. And it sucks. So bad.

(Frank) #4

Not at all. We are own worst critics. Even in better health we all have those days for sure. Life continues around us regardless of our diet/health goals. It’ll get better.

(Frank) #5

You know your mental health history obviously better than any of us. Certainly not something to minimize. I’m sure you have a toolbox filled with coping mechanisms and whatnot. Time to bring them out and see what works.

(Chelsea Barnett) #6

I don’t feel like it will get better. I’m literally crying now and can’t stop. I feel disgusting and like I don’t want to be around anybody.

(Chelsea Barnett) #7

I don’t have any coping mechanisms. I used to use drugs for that. I’ve been clean for almost 2 years. And I know I’m not going to relapse or anything. Thats not an issue here. And I feel stupid for throwing all of this out here for every one to see. I don’t want pity. I just want to feel better. And know I’m not alone in this.

(Frank) #8

If you have a close friend or family member that knows your history and is supportive give them a call.

(Chelsea Barnett) #9

Good idea. I’m probably going to call my mom

(Frank) #10

I made an assumption that since you were on psychotropic meds in the past that you had a therapist that had worked with you. I apologize if that is incorrect. Please call someone if you can.

(Susan) #11

All the time! My weight loss is so slow - I’ve lost 10 pounds over the past 9 weeks. I have lost 4 inches off chest, waist and hips though since I started in May, but it feels like I’ll never reach my goal. But I’ve also had plenty of NSV so I try not to be too hard on myself.

(Chelsea Barnett) #12

What do you when you have those days. This is my first day like this. And I feel hopeless. I just want to go back to feeling better.

(Chelsea Barnett) #13

I used to go see a mental health doctor. But I haven’t in years since he took me off of the meds.

(Susan) #14

Well I was probably being a bit flippant as I answered before I read the rest of your posts. I guess I just get more frustrated than anything. I’ve learned that bad feelings eventually pass, but if you need extra help then get some without feeling ashamed. :hugs:

(Short224) #15

This is completely normal there are days I feel great and others I feel like a blimp and feel like nothing has changed . I’ve only lost 15 pounds of course it’s hard to notice and nobody around me notices either . I think the important thing is try to love yourself throughout the journey think of how far you have came already look back on your posts you posted when you were so excited how far you are . This day will pass just be strong for yourself and the babies you can do this your a healthier momma because of this :orange_heart:

(Chelsea Barnett) #16

Thank you. I just went and took a hot shower and took a few minutes to myself just to breath and I already feel better. I am sorry for being so depressing and I hope that y’all don’t think I’m a lunatic or bipolar.

(Chelsea Barnett) #17

I actually noticed a silly nsv as I was taking a shower too and it brought me in a better mood. I just need to focus less on my appearance and focus more on how much healthier I am now I guess. I will probably have another day like this and I just hope I can continue to be happy with my progress over all And not get upset. Just think about my main goal weight and try to get to it