I started this comment on Wednesday.
I really want to see what happens if I try to get satiated by leanish pork. I always planned to have similar high-protein experiments (okay itās weaker nowā¦ I just start with my pork and we will see. I surely add much fat later) but I need very much determination and focus to avoid the automatic flow of fat. It justā¦ Appears somehow. Of course if I want it, I eat it but way before that it just finds its way into my day and I donāt even notice. But tomorrow I will be focused. I hope. I actually planned a nice day with leanish pork and some eggs and sausage to balance it out to a tiny extent. It will be high protein, low cal as itās inevitable. Or not because I decide to eat a ton of fat, who knows? I will just try, I never force myself into anything. But I want to see what happens and only add much fat if there is a very good reason for it.
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My irresistible desire towards pork chuck (and the soup I made yesterday and didnāt taste yet. it has pork chuck too, the bony part) postponed the above experiment. Maybe tomorrow.
For some reason I got borderline hungry very early (I mean, 10-11am) and who am I to resist the siren song of pork chuck soupā¦? So I ate that and a tiny bit of other things, not good with tiny meals even in the morning now, it seems.
I lost the photo again among the CF cards somewhere, oh well, it wasnāt pretty 
Just very tasty.
In a few days, about 7 fruit seasons will end (oh well, itās such a general word, I donāt blur it. or should I?). It will make things cleaner. I am good enough IMOā¦ Usuallyā¦ But itās just impossible to avoid everything all the time. When I see exactly zero reason to do it. I just like to do things properly sometimes and I donāt need, donāt want, itās just everywhere always and I have my limits 
I planned this week more proper, I really believed itās possible
But Carni Satiation is still super strong. Not too bad so I can do TMAD but stronger than ideal. Maybe summer helps too. Though I never experienced losing hunger or appetite even in the hottest weather. At least not to the point that I could lose fat. I probably was less prone to overeatingā¦?
It rained again, fortunately I did my walk early. It was so nice, I saw 2 blue herons!
No new photo but maybe you want to see young swans in their top majesty 
Like some furry lumpy rocks
Okay, a more proper photo with adults.
IDK where to put the focus even if I could control itā¦ The autofocus on the lense is annoying so itās always manual but I donāt see it perfectly in so tiny. But with multiple targets, I donāt even know what would be rightā¦ And I never play with depth of field around the pond. Pretty rarely anyway. I put most effort into the hummingbird hawk-moth and there wasnāt even the possibility of perfection, short time went against proper depth of field, I even lowered the quality (higher ISO and itās an older camera, itās not as nice as in modern ones) and it was the brightest day one can have But the tiny thing blurs even at 1/2500s! So I juggled with 3 different things - and the moth spent 2 sec on a flower and I had to find the next one, itās not easy with a 300mm lenseā¦ Itās good I had passion, I never was that patient and careful any other time. I just click, mostly and we will see. But I like challenges with a nice reward.
Butterflies are darlings, not shy, spending ages on a flower, being still and beautiful and big No challenge.
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Had some quark snack and then dinner. I didnāt feel that hungry but I started to eatā¦ And I was nearly instoppable. In the end I ate all my chuck.
I tracked (very guesstimated, I left a little chuck in the soupā¦)ā¦ 800g pork chuck. 8 eggs. And quark. 230g protein. Well it happens sometimesā¦ 
It was nice, I would love to eat more chuck, maybe not today (I could. a bit more, at least) but soon. But I have leaner pork now. Maybe itās betterā¦
I can blame 2 things.
- Very early first meal (but I was hungry. and I had nice lovely pork chuck. no regrets).
- Too many low-meat days lately. I already noticed that no matter how well I eat, when I finally jump the tempting pile of meat, it is serious.
I enjoyed my food for sure
I actually felt I had enough pork but then I ate some freshly made sponge cake with quarkā¦ And then I could finish the porkā¦ And more sponge cakeā¦
It was enjoyable and I need my high-cal, high-protein days, apparently. So all is well as long as I donāt do it too often.
I am just a tiny bit shaken. It was unexpected, I donāt know while, the above points make it not surprising. And tender meat in soup? Super easy to eat.
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I brought the photos, fortunately all of them.
Another day and I have no idea if my meaty day had something to do with it, but today I have a much better day, mentally and physically. My workout went WAY better, I need to raise weights for all the muscle groups I trained this far.
Today I felt peckish before lunchtime. Itās a good word (and I only learned it a few years ago) as I wasnāt hungry, per se or anythingā¦ But I felt I would be quite annoyed without a lunch.
So I ate this and that. Pork soup with 3 poached eggs, little pork, little brisket, little cheese and tiny sausage, sponge cakes (I made them crispy again in the oven. they always go soft in this humidity and itās not even high now, only 50%. I like the AC, itās a great and quick dehumidifier. I often just use it for 10-20 minutes).
After yesterday no wonder my lunch was smallish.
Ew. I rather never see coffee again (or bone broth. I can keep my meat soups, right? with meaty bones those are cool).
In my world, sweets and non-sweets canāt really mix. And coffee is in the sweets category, loosely. It doesnāt matter itās black. Itās there.
oh well negatives into positives, it will be nice for running to work and home again! 
, 2.2ltr so I will fill that each morning on arrival and that will keep me going all dayā¦ probably on the loo hahah.
