I promises myself i would stick to only savoury stuff BUT tonight i really feel the need to drown my sorrows in somthing sweet.
For those who have followed my journey, you will know that my beautiful 4 year old Chocolate Lab puppy has undergone a crappy year of health problems. We are talking $35000.00 worth. And we chased every diagnostic trail possible and still could not get an answer. After a full year of failed treatment, our last ditch effort was to put her on steroids and…success!! Symptom free for 4 months…happy…playful and bouncy. Even gained weight and kept it on. It was like we had our Dog back.
However, suddenly a week and a half ago, we noticed after she scratched herself, that her fur was coming out in clumps and along with it, her skin. We took our Dog to the Vet once again and they determined she must have some kind of bacterial skin infection. So we put her om antibiotics and anti-fungals and medicated shampoos daily. But her hair kept falling out to the point where her back had no fur and whatever was causing this, caused her skin to look like it was melting off of her. She lost her epidermal and dermal layers of skin on her back and this infectiom was spreading up her neck and further down her back. Her skin would weep fluid and scab and it became hard and wrinkley. Unfortunately the antibiotics did not work and in these last 5 days she has become lethargic and lifeless. She slept all day, had no interest in life and then this morning, she had her first vommitimg episode since being free of those due to the steroids.
Today my husband and I made a decision to surrender her to the SPCA. We were told by the Vet that if we did, they would agree to take on her complex medical case and treat her and if she got better, adopt her out to a new home. Sadly for us, we can no longer keep her. We have spent thousands of dollars trying to keep her alive and have gone into huge debt more times then i can count. By now, all 3 student loans could have been paid off.
We know that this was the only way to potentially save her life and provide her with another fighting chance but our hearts are heavy.
Quite frankly…its Day 7 of my restart and i could easily go off Keto and binge for the next several days as i cope with the loss and grief i feel. However, i have decided i am not going to do that. But what i do want is an opportunity to bake somthing Keto(i used to be a Baker…i bake when i am sad and it seems to help) so i can enjoy a moment of enjoyment today.
I think i would love a tried and true cupcake recipe if possible. Prefer NO coconut flour!
Thanks all❤