It doesn’t make me fat, nope*. It keeps me fat.
*well it had a huge role but carbs were the culprit. I could never eat enough carbs to gain fat so fat was needed as well but even overeating fat was due to too much carbs back then. now I still overeat fat sometimes but not to that extent so I don’t gain fat on keto, I just stall. But I almost always eat too much fat to be able to lose, apparently.
I don’t worry about the +1kg, it will come down, sure. It always does. Even my body can do this tiny fluctuations especially if carbs are involved (it’s so odd carb eating change my weight now, they never did for years).
Oh well, it’s not one of my biggest problems.
I had a bad day again. The usual big problem: I was so, so hungry, for hours and I couldn’t eat enough. In the end I hated all my food (including non-carnivore ones, I can’t handle hunger so I ate whatever I was willing) and still was hungry. But not so much so I grabbed my not first eggy coffee and left the kitchen. And it got better.
I need to solve this somehow. I wonder if there is some super good dense food I can eat almost any time when hungry. I sooo hate making zillion tiny dishes even if they are simple
I already baked bread and pizza today, I just had no mood to spend even more time in the kitchen 
I may up the force-feeding level (from the zero I do now… I do eat things I don’t desire but nothing I strongly dislike and don’t want at all) but I hate that.
When will my meat eating willingness come back? I only could eat tiny amounts today and it wasn’t enjoyable at all.
Tomorrow will be better, rabbit stew and PSMF bread, two wonder dish that I am looking forward to eat. I dislike even the special items I practically always liked before.
I have
When we bought this house about 10 years ago, it was full with ~12 year old trees as the previous owners planted a lot. Maybe they had older ones, I am not very familiar with 22 year old linden and pine tree sizes… They are pretty tall.
It’s fun to see what the new trees does. Sometimes they grow very slowly, like my plum trees. I have a walnut tree that was a mere stick (with leaves except in winter) for YEARS.
And I have a probably 22 years old medlar tree that is super tiny and very assymmetric as poor thing is in the valley but at the windiest place without protection. The other medlar tree that is maybe 15 years younger is about as tall (and prettier. we found a better place for that).
I am sad there was a big storm once that killed the biggest tree in this area, near to my property, I could see it from some windows. It was a HUGE cherry tree. Mine is just big, 22 years is enough to make a cherry tree grow to some nice size but that was old and respectable and way, way, way more impressive! It was wonderful when in bloom.
I have many honeysuckle
They grow like crazy, produce a lot of dry branches (and I need to cut off live ones too as they grow too long and bend and bam, I lost the grassy place next to my terrace), keep some of my flowers bloom (I won’t forget to cut those off in spring! They will grow back in no time anyway. I don’t know why the original owner planted peonies there but I won’t move them) and they may be super pretty when blooming but that lasts only for a little time…
Yellow is the best color to cheer one up - unless they don’t like it so much. But yellow is cheerful, whenever I read about the role(?) of colors, it’s mentioned. As I love yellows, it may be especially true for me. A nice, not too bright yellow is calming to me.