Hi guys, I am alive (sorry Robin!!!) just couldn’t handle my internet addiction anymore and took out my wifi card for longer this time (it didn’t help enough but at least I didn’t think about food all the time).
I heard about Fangs’s mom and read back and I see there were more though not that very close losses. My condolences to all, I am not good with words in this situation…
@Karen18: I never heard about fatsia spider web but it’s BEAUTIFUL!!!
I brought pics! Nothing new except the hellebores are blooming (and there are way more snowdrops):
Well nope, I forgot our first crocuses came out! Not a good photo but I only have this now, I shouldn’t forget to go out and make a better now, with multiple flowers!
But of course, it’s still February so not a very green scenery at one of my fav places in the wildlife park…
Alvaro catched something at work and I was kinda sick for several days, nothing serious just some very slight cold but I am not used to it. Maybe being a hermit did bad to my immune system… Or my supressed general life stress? Oh well, I will get better at it again.
I obviously lost all will to try anything, I ate whatever, whenever. It wasn’t so great first as I didn’t do OMAD. But the monthly fast came and I do OMAD-ish since. My food is mostly carnivore as how else would I eat except for rare periods, Alv made a great somewhat carby dish I love and didn’t eat since ages maybe a week ago. I still love it and it felt great so I am so looking forward to have it again but I am in no hurry. But I embrace my lil extras as
- I don’t want to get bored of meat again
- They are nice and feels great and don’t even trigger overeating. Trying even a bit hard just backfires in my life.
I surely will have my challenges and I really should be careful not to let things get out of hand - but even then, it’s just too much fat like today, okay, my carb intake could be lower too but I just can’t go too high as I prefer carni food, apparently.
I made something new! I bought some interesting pork chops. I googled a lot as I didn’t understand the cut and it was in Hungarian… It turned out there are interesting fatty pieces around there and sometimes the slab contains them too! It was AWESOME and I opened my big packed of bacon after 2 months(?) and used it generously on the proper meat… It was a match made in heaven, I must tell you. Beautiful as well! I definitely will make this again, I guess any leaner cut will do.
It was several days ago, I had chicken and pork chuck since then (both roasted, I used spice on the chicken legs as they are so tasteless normally), we bought it at a market we never used before, the chicken was okay, not much taste but a tender, easy to eat thing for variety… But the chuck was disappointing. It wasn’t bad, per se, I ate it up but it wasn’t nearly as enjoyable as usual.
I still have pork shoulders and we really will make beef stew already… I guess this weekend. But it’s up to Alvaro, he eats meat now after 5 vegetarian days and who knows when he will have enough? But he should be okay with it for the weekend.
We had egg stew, well, I am not so much into it anymore. And I fried potatoes today and tasted the crispiest pieces and OMG, they have starch flavor now!!! What. (I am aware they are starchy, obviously but I always felt nice potato flavor before. It was one of my HUGE fav for decades.)
Oh well, I won’t exactly mourn them if I can’t eat them anymore due to taste changes, I have lots of other things to eat and it’s not like I had much in the last decade (except when I had phases after 5 years almost completely without them. but I changed since).
I still have my sponge cake bread phase now, I use twice as many whites than yolks now. Pretty awesome. Best bread ever even in its deflated way… 
I started to track again, I couldn’t without internet, I have notes but I may or may not be diligent enough to track my first OMAD day (I won’t the rest) when I probably ate A TON. My calories dropped since. Now I automatically have a little deficit even when I do “everything wrong” with my food choices like much added fat and my single meal being elongated (one may say it’s two meals but they are quite close).
We will see what will happen, I stick to this new style now.
My strange 76kg period came and went, I am below 75kg again. I wish to go lower already. I am this weight since 15 months, I was 69 or a bit more or less for 8 years before… I had enough though it’s still not one of my most important problems. But it seems a good time to lose, I never will eat less than this.
Oh my exercise. I got weak as a kitten even with my tiiiiny cold so I stopped my workouts. Then the weather was cold and I didn’t want to go out with my sore throat and funny nose, then my sleep got horrible… So I am sedentary now but I want to change it coming tomorrow.
The weather is sunny every day again and it’s not very cold for February. Sometimes pretty warm and I better go out in a t-shirt… We need to heat the house way less now and as it happens with the AC, it costs very little. Significantly less than $1 a day, we don’t know exactly as we don’t measure the AC alone. Heating, hot water and cooking is still below $1. But we have spent much on insulation and it’s not a big house. And at least my room gets sunshine, the others very little.
Tomorrow I go to check out the pasque flowers again… After a proper sleep AT NIGHT, I hope. As I sleep, just not when I should. And that causes various problems.
But it seems I don’t need as much sleep as before. Hard to tell as I don’t take notes and I always was okay with less sleep for a little while (it means 6 hours, not less but my average should be way higher).
My energy is okay, my mood had problems. So I think my noticeably higher energy that started several weeks ago(?) is still here. Bad sleep interferes but I am sure I am more okay energy wise. Good.
remember old days your mom gave ya ‘something healthy to eat’ and we could barely choke it down but mom wanted us to eat it for health…well it stinks eating stuff that is icky, but darn you made your chewing experience on your rump sound so darn good HAHA
they all look okay inside and are safe at least which id main thing. Need to put the palm into a bigger tub and I bought 2 plastic half barrel type containers at £7 ea which will be less likely to blow over in high winds. Blimey its like caring for children/pets lol x
not like I wouldn’t want to be slim for health then and I never cared about my appearance much - but not the men. not like I ever wanted a man, I am probably a demipansexual androgyn). Muscles look good but I always preferred slim, somewhat feminine boys. But with some proper build if it makes sense. Slim but still okay not pathetic. I struggle with English here but I am not into this modern pc-ness anyway. I can’t imagine why some people has problem with almost neutral facts.
just a tiny bit and I use bigger weights in a single special shoulder exercise, we checked that once… sigh. I can’t even have the upper hand in the beginning when he is very untrained and I have years of experience. oh well, I only am in a race with myself) so it may be fine, our bodies may evolve with our changing aesthetics a bit 
