@Hoteski I get it.
I think that when I eat too many carbs, it affects my mental processes as well. I get angry, irritable, and pull inside myself. The anger scares me only in that it can come on so swiftly and with such fury. I will just start yelling, throwing my arms around (if there’s anything in my hand, it’ll get thrown), and just feeling and acting plain horrible.
Or, I’ll just sit quietly, ignoring people, not wanting to interact with anyone. Not good when I’m at work (retail) and am required to put on the Happy Face for customers. Then it tends to become overly joyful (a too big smile?) and borderline manic, or hypomanic, maybe because I’m forcing the issue, and my mind is like, “Oh! You want to pretend to be happy? Okay then, there ya go!!!” and I get dropped of a cliff into a swirling eddy of hypomania, and the ‘auctioneer’ comes out. Yep, my speech gets super fast, and I start stumbling/slurring words, all to try and quickly fit in and placate the humans around me that “we’re all normal 'round here!”
and it comes close to my mental state post-carbage. Hoo–hoo-hoo!
Carbs = fat = equals floating? lol
All this to say, I really need to fix my thought processes so that I DON’T go over that cliff (again). And by ‘fix thought processes’ I mean reminding myself that carbs=bad! They are a no-no.
Also, it occured to me last night… Daughter will buy berries and watermelon, and then not eat them, so I’ll eat them, cuz they’re “good food” and I don’t want them to go bad. I began thinking that she’s trying to sabotage me by bringing stuff into the home that a) she forgets about, and b) I LOVE.
So then my second thought was, “Gotta love yourself more than their need to sabotage you.”