I see a lot of posts where people say “I haven’t cheated but I am not losing … or I am gaining!” Well … I have decided that there is “cheating” and then there is “cheating.”
The last few weeks I have noticed that I am starving in the morning and a lot more hungry during the day. I have been gaining and losing the same 2 pounds and I am starting to feel less energetic and depressed. I HAVE NOT CHEATED! (Meaning, I have not gone over my carbs or eaten any non-keto food) So what gives?
Let me tell you what gives … I have gotten lazy! I stopped tracking! I have been eating whenever I want to! I have not been to the gym! I have been using sweetener whenever I want! I stopped measuring!
So even though I have not “cheated” in the true sense of the word … I have cheated myself!
After 4 months of being on the WOL and losing 28 pounds I was getting tired of being so diligent. I was tired of measuring and tracking. I figured “I have this down!”
Because of how I have been feeling I knew that I wasn’t in ketosis any longer. I ordered some urine strips and finally ordered 10 blood ketone strips yesterday (I am unemployed and can’t afford them so have been putting it off) and received them this morning (I love living near an Amazon Warehouse) … as I expected I am at 0.4 and showing 0 on urine strips.
Today has been hard … I have been hungry all day and feel like if I don’t eat I will go crazy! I am not craving sweets which is a blessing. So here I am having to take a cold, hard, “come to Jesus meeting” with myself. I realize that as someone who is addicted to food (not just sugar) and someone who has trouble with binge eating that I may have to always be diligent. I had to do a lot of self talk today about what my goals and dreams are and how to get there … even if it’s hard.
For some people this WOL seems easy but for me it has been hard and sometimes exhausting. It is more mental for me than physical. I feel like I have fought tooth and nail for the the 29 pounds I have lost. I have another 112 pounds to goal and that seems very daunting to me and so unattainable. I feel like all I think about is keto! Are my macros correct? Should I be fasting? Are my macros correct? Should I cut out dairy? Are my macros correct? Should I cut out this? or that? Are my macros correct? I swear I drive myself crazy!
So there was a reason for my “laziness” … I was tired mentally! But I have to find a way to make this work for me. I WILL make this work for me! I have to get back up on the horse and stay diligent.
I really feel that the WOL is the right choice for me and I am happy that I have found this forum (3 days ago or so)!