I’m still somewhat new to this WOE (1/11/18) but I can feel a shift in how I feel about food already and I think my brain is going through some changes.
I’ve always been someone who thought about eating all day and my life has always revolved around my next meal and, unfortunately, I’ve been known to relax and/or comfort myself by binging. Well, I am at the point that my appetite is just not that strong. I still think about my food, because I track everything pretty closely, but I think that eating this way is starting to change the emotional component of it and I don’t feel out of control when I’m hungry. I eat. I’m full. And that’s it.
And here’s something else that’s weird… when it’s quiet, or I’m trying to fall asleep, or I’m exercising, I’ve been flooded by upsetting memories. Some of them going back to when I was pre-kindergarten age. I don’t dwell on them or anything. I’m usually able to acknowledge them and then work on relaxing and clearing my head. I don’t feel like this is a bad thing at all. It’s occurring to me that I’m changing. I’m not numbing or self-medicating myself with food anymore so all of these repressed things may be just…I don’t know…working out of my system, maybe? They’re not particularly intrusive and impacting my quality of life, it’s more like, “Damn that’s new.” But for the most part…I’m just feeling really, really good.
Anyway, I started eating this way to lose weight, (which I have and I hope it continues…) but I think it may turn out to be kind of life changing too, and it’s pretty cool.