Too tired to avoid writing unnecessarily way too much (I know after trying to make some decent comments and abandoning both soon after) so I just say for now, I want to do everything better in July. June wasnāt my month. Sleep, activity, eating, fasting, coffee, creation, mood, everything could be much better. The bar is super low.
I have attended a 8 bit demoscene party after 5 years and now I feel I got back some of my passion and it easily helps with everything, I already tried but I was so down and kind of apatheticā¦ I feel alive again.
I donāt really have goals for July (yet). It should be better than June (it was a bad month in general) but I donāt want to have any particular strictness (itās welcomed if it comes naturally but I donāt feel that strict), at least not right now, we will see later. Except I do want fast until dinner nearly every day. It should be easy but of course I manage to mess it up even if it goes well first (a melted brain, being down and having sleep problems never help especially that if I wake before 6am, I always eat. very unusual from me as I normally canāt eat in the morning. maybe itās some effort to make things better, well food does wake me up a little but I could just drinkā¦? nope, I always feel an irresistible urge to eat eggs then. thatās my default food at dawn when I should be asleep, scrambled eggs).
I really donāt want much focus on food (not even on some effort). I shouldnāt even come to this forum every day. It probably would do good at this point.
Best wishes for you others! If I manage to have some okay days or we cook something interesting (we do have beef we should eat already), I will come back. Or when I do something with the photos I have tried to make of my gladioluses, they are so very beautiful! We both are highly impressed.
poor Raymond very disappointed.
